sighh.

i like to make comparison. i know in a relationship..it's wrong to make comparison..and i know that..in every relationship..u are suppose to expect different things from different pple..but...i WILL still compare..i'll still wonder..
why other pple's bf will wan to meet their gfs everyday (if possible) but mine wun..
why other pple's bf will at least have given their gfs a bouquet of flowers on some special occasions..but mine wun..(not even a stalk)..
why other pple's bf will contact their gfs whenever possible but mine wun..

whywhywhy..

i know...he may be doing things in his very own way..not by those typical ways that normal guys do..or typical ways that girls dream of..BUT i dun see any effort at all...

ok. he may be busy..sch..studies..but i believe that itz not an excuse.

i dun need flowers every meeting..i dun need us to meet every single day..i dun need him to msg or call me every min/hr...

i just need him to let me know that..ok. he's there..busy but yet thinking of me. if he's busy...fine..just send a msg which says..will be busy whole day..take good care or blahblah..things like that.. will that take like an hr?

maybe itz partly my fault..for..thinking abt him..every now and then..for trying to meet up..whenever i can..

maybe is our different pt of view...

or is it..horoscope plays a part..

character...

what hurts me most is..he'll always give me vague ans..i know..he's afraid that i'll feel disappointed..but telling me yes with that tone of unwillingness..do u think i'll be happy? or maybe he thought that i cant sense his unwillingness..? which is like...super obvious?

itz disturbing me.

ANYWAY..dear val..ur email makes me laugh! =) u're still the best.

my dearest girls...i miss all of u.

♥ xoxo ♥ top ♥